2010?!

Folks!

I started not to do one of these this year. I just wanted to keep things as simple as possible. As I looked back on my previous posts like this from last year and the year before, I thought it was kind of cool and decided I couldn’t pass it up. So here I am! It’s cool to go back and reread these and see what I was thinking a year ago, how I sounded and what my goals were. It definitely gives me something concrete to go back to and reflect. I can look at it and ask myself, “Did I accomplish what I set out to do this year?” Some things I have to give a lot of thought, while an easy answer comes for others.

It’s not even about making New Year’s Resolutions anyway. A lot of the time, I come up with those silly things and rarely stick to them. So I just use the opportunity to make new goals, just like the ones I make any other day, not just because a new year is rolling in. My goals always have to do with becoming a better person. I strive to do that with each day, but as the New Year rolls in, it gives me the chance to reflect on the past year and see where I am in the bigger picture of my life and where I’d like to be within the next year.

Every day is a learning experience, but when I look back at 2009, I see tremendous growth within myself. The person I was on January 1st, 2009 is definitely not the same person sitting here on December 31, 2009. I’ve had plenty good times, and just as many bad times in the same year. It’s in those tough times where I redefine myself. I’ve grown in every aspect possible: emotionally, mentally, physically (well maybe not so much LOL), and definitely spiritually.

I strive to continue to grow in all of those areas in 2010! I’ll be 20, no longer a ‘teen. That’s pretty exciting! I figure this age brings on a completely new era in my life. Twenty. Man, I like how that sounds! I haven’t decided yet what it really means to me. I’ll have to get back at you with that one when my birthday rolls around. TWENTY!! 20! Ha!

But anyways…I want to really focus on me this year. Get back down to the essence of LaDai, who I truly I am. I’d like to think that if there’s anything in life I’ve got figured out 100%....it’s myself. Unfortunately, that’s not always the case! As people, we’ve got to understand that we’re always in a constant state of becoming, we’re never “finished” with anything…when you’re finished, you’re dead. There’s always something we can do to improve ourselves. Whether it’s to accomplish a goal or do something you’ve never tried before, there’s always wiggle room for improvement and growth.

I think too much. Luckily, that works out for me in a number of situations, but it’s an obstacle as well because I lack spontaneity. I’m the least bit impulsive. I’ve got to know who, what, when, where, and why before I do anything. So in 2010, I’m going to leap before I look! I’m not saying I’m going to be reckless now, don’t twist my words…lol…But these are the years of my life. I want to look back in 5 years and say I did everything I wanted to do exactly how I wanted to. I don’t want to look back and see all the opportunities and fun I missed out on because I always have to look before I leap!

So in 2010, here’s to leaping before you look! Do what (and who, jkjk lol) you want, when you want, where you want, how you want…etc…all that good stuff lol…Every day is your day, just live life! If you happen to stumble on some things you regret, it’s all good as long as you learn from it! Ladi Dadi is living it up in 2010!!

Peace and blessings in the new year!
~LaDai